Right now I’ve been constantly just letting anything that i find pleasurable take over as I’ve been doing whatever makes me happy. But It’s too much, as good as playing games all day, and not focusing on the world around me. I’ve isolated my mind from work and school only seeing them as a chore and becuase of that it’s made my attitude for my jobs terrible but I’d go the extra mile only when I felt like it.
I’ve not been the perfect person but I’ve tried to make my mark memorable. I don’t hate the world I’ve got a spotlight and she is what keeps me going. I used to be severely depressed and it was awful mainly as it made it like I couldn’t be my full self around the people I know and even myself. But now that I’ve been with my girlfriend for so long I’ve been changing for the better and its so beautiful the world. As the more I see the better I feel.